It’s alright to not be alright:)

I rather stay anonymous, because this is gonna be a rather emo blog, but better as you read on:)

To the person who wrote the lights camera and smile blog, I cannot thank you enough, I literally started bawling the moment  I read it. Let’s be real about something, these past few days or even weeks have been absolutely trashed, with just obstacle over obstacle thrown at our way, from every coming direction, and the impact of it is deadening to the core, like the feeling of giving up on life itself it’s at  its extreme. Our exams results were demoralising, with the opposite shown in comparison to our efforts, there is not one day after we got them them that I could fall asleep, guilt gnawing me over why can’t you do better than this, and there is not one day I never felt I was a failure, and that I’m doing worse than others, and I’m not bucking up and I’m a absolute disappointment to whoever believed that I could do much better, and a disgrace to those who still falsely believe that I’m doing great and that this one time isn’t a great deal.

Like the previous blogger said, I’m literally dead these past few days, my interactions have gone down, my social battery is at 1%, and I just hate talking to ppl these days, and I just want to be away from everyone, because the fear that I’m not enough is just there and then, like a parasite in my mind. Everyday, I fear that  I’m not doing enough, not enough for everyone, and like she said, my contributions to everything will just boil down to nothing. Like who can we trust these days, and what if like she said, everyone is a liar? And just getting myself to school has been just a pain, I just want to bury myself deep in never to see anyone again, and it’s tiring, like a boring and never ending spiral

These past few days or weeks or months have been painful, excruciating, and exhausting, and demoralising for not just me, but all of you, but the thing is, this should not stop you, as life will tend to definitely get better at a point, as life is just a cycle of ups and downs, and never will one day be the same. Thus get this, cry on, push yourself and move on, because life is never constant, and if you only think you can do it, you will do it, and that is true. And like she said, we are made to never give up, and never back down, because there is always the least get at the end of every tunnel.

POP is also coming soon, and it will be a lie to say we are all mentally ready for this new step, and it has been tiring and a never easy journey, but we will all get there

So, if you think it’s wrong to not be alright….

Then read this, it is alright to never be alright….

And we will always be by your side, no matter what