drug that starts with m: MCFLURRY + MANGO PUDDING AT HTA

hi

its saturday 10.09pm and i feel bored restless lethargic

past few days were trash but life goes on and so will i. ill talk ab the more happy? things in life? such an absolute illusion. school sucked the air outta me and when i say i cant wait for it to end. i mean it. more than whatever it seems like.

june. im coming right for u. its heaven. dreamland. with flowers and the perfect sandalwood + rose water + rich clove scent. (im being this specific because i smelt this at a place and i couldnt help but ask the store owner what hocus pocus spell she casted in there it was such a comforting scent i hope my parents get it one day) with fresh leaves hanging all over. air conditioning. and a nice lil comfy bed for me to sleep in. its the perfect uwuwuwuwu place for me. a getaway from life. alone. and music ofcourse. im bringing along ed sheeran, taylor swift, tate mcrae and sid sriram (this guy sings so well bruh i love his songs)

saempoopta garjanai owes me big bigbigbigbig time for not getting liho w me. we had agreed to get it on friday but she somehow got it earlier.

coffee messes up my pookies' sleep schedules and i hate it for that. that is pure torture. i cant believe coffee is such a bad influence to some of my pookies getting addicted by it. cant imagine life with coffee. insane(ly) AWFUL sorry. i cant believe. cannot. believe. my lovely pookies love it. but i wont question that. (maybe i am by doing this) im in a uwuwuwuwu state rn. i will regret posting this later. so cringe. NOBADY NOBADY NOBADY NOW NOBADY NOW NOBADY NOW (its a song. i hope. because if not idk what ive been singing to myself these days) CARES haha.

 

milk tea 🤓🤓🤓🤓🤓🤓🤓🤓

i love milk tea sm. miss pre-AC SM. so precious. we always get the same exact stuff from 7-eleven. 🥹🥹🥹

chips + my brown sugar milk tea + cup noodles

life was great

im lying on my bed thinking ab how everyone's doing today. theres so much going around in this world. like each of u reading this blog could be in totally diff places doing totally diff things. i mean obviously lah. it could be raining. could be drizzling. could be really dark and quiet. the fact that u opened this blog shows that u care to check whats going on in our lives. but not everyone asks "are u okay" we are so caught up in our own lives that we dont have time to even do the bare minimum. im not talking on behalf of the whole singapore population or whatever. but the few people who do are really sweet for doing that. great people. they make us feel valued and noticed. i hate singapore so much. its so egoistic. but like it to some extent? for providing me with all the things i have rn. ill give it that much credit. but otherwise, its so expensive for no reason at all. egoistic like a helium balloon. floating above everyone else. that is what singapore is.

anyway i

in my 15 years of living ive never ever been to an ACTUAL-lights-camera-torchlights-bracelets-loadsofpeople-nostalgic-overwhelminginagoodway-uwu concert b4. never in my whole entire life. ik. im abnormal. we know the situation we are in. but thats only because there are expectations that need to be met the only concert i would want to go to is ed sheeran's, taylor swift's, or sid sriram's. 

guess why i havent. all of them have come b4. thats not the problem here but i never knew they were even coming in the first place. nobady told me... i always get to know of it only when its too late. i cried. because THAT was painful.

last time it used to be like me begging for there to be singapore and looking for singapore singapore singapore plsplsplsplspls 

but it never exists.

except that one time they magically decide to come, i dont know they do and flash news. i miss it every single time.

so can we scratch concerts off the list now. i hope i can go to the one which is coming soon and be more socially updated on actual things that are going on instead of uk history repeating again and crying over spilt milk. everybady clap. that was a good phrase in use.

yes 

im scared for POP. idk if im physically mentally emotionally ready for whatever it takes. to hold everything in. iykyk.

bye pookies

uwu <3 (ew)

this is probably my second cringest blog. sure ill admit if all my other blogs are cringe. its OKAY for them to be. trust. 🤓🤓😄😄😄😄😄😄😄

im not gaslighting myself. im not delulu.

im definitely not if it has already hit me that POP is next next week. are you kidding me.

i love my NCOs. idc anymore. because our NCOs deserve all the love they can get. for tolerating us. all this time. so yes. idc if this is cringe. ok i do care but

self love is key for me to thrive 💗

i am the IT girl. 💗

self confidence is key for me to thrive 💗

I AM THAT. 💗

yosista