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mission accomplished.

dear cedar np, it has been four years of resilience, four years of np, four years of perseverance, four years of persephone. it feels like just yesterday i was with our Metis Ma'ams learning Sedia and having 7-minute water breaks for no absolute reason. ah, those days. now, we've grown to become the Sec 4 squad we looked up to. time has flown by at the speed of the hentak timings that always got me breathless after we berhenti. we had seen our Metis, Hera, and Euphrosyne Ma'ams pop, and finally, it's our grand finale. thank you for making my secondary school life so worth it. there have been ups and downs, even ke belakang pusings in my journey, but nothing cheered me up the way cedar np did. from walking around during the cca exhibition, to joining the cca, to ac, to atc, to nc24, everyone has always been by my side, pushing me on like how our Ma'ams would remind us to raise our legs to 90 degrees during hentak.  pop was bittersweet, real nostalgic. to know that i ...

unreal

 we have POPed! parade was so fire ABSOLUTELY loved the gifts the effort 🤌 will genuinely miss all our juniors with all my heart and ESPECIALLY NYX omg my babies icb im no longer ur NCO…jiayou for taking over and ik yall can do this! wld defo miss calypso and Selene too omg I wld MISS CALYPSOS ENTHUSIASM SM and selenes brain rot BYE 💀💀I hope yall cooperate w ur Nyx Ma’ams and enjoy another year ahead in CNU! squad dinner was so fun wld miss my 13 squaddies SO MUCH there is no words for me to express it and I js love how we CHEERED TGT AFTER BERSURAI yay i hope we keep in touch forever and ever love yall sm  - darumdarimda 💗💗

D-DAY IS HERE

woah when did this happen- it's POP????? already???? cheese and sprinkles this is crazy.  yet here i am rushing pop cards online because i suck at time management then the cards? i messed them up real bad. there's one that i missed so whoever the junior is, i'm super sorry you don't have a card because of printing error :( but you still have a message from me! just use the link on ur squadmate's card and enter ur code; i'll give you your code. anyway i still have to do 8 more messages for nyx, so imma rush it during lunch; i already have 3 oeqs to rush during break so i'll try to finish everything. hopefully :') bye finally we're having squad dinner after ac!  ok i will update later, likely after pop, maybe tmr? you never know. -a5m1+a

pet peeves

1. people who yell for no reason 2. fakies who act like their life depends on it 3. double standards AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA 4. people who have a fat ego and can't apologise 5. ANYONE WHO'S BAD AT PEOPLE SKILLS 6. people with no eq 7. two faced people get out pls i hate the above with a burning passion

Life is unfair

 I got a B3 for physics so my mom threw my phone across the dining table and broke it and now i cant communicate with anyone istg.

A compilation of my aura loss moments this week

 Hi my very fabulous humans,  today, you shall be blessed with my very amazing compilation of aura loss moments, so sit back, relax, eat some popcorn and enjoy. so lets break this week dowm, ive had 5876498723398 exams and 4639273787 mental breakdowns lol so onto my moments 1. starting with wednesday, I had a breakdown just before amath, ran into lesson late and asked my teacher if i needed a calculator for the paper, like erm bro thats kinda obvious you do?!! ok that was kinda embarrasing 2. Thursday - Lets talk about csp, i looked at the rearranging the sentences section, went nope, and skipped the whole section, and just bsed may way through that, and for the vocab section, my classmates found the answer in totally different sections, and looked at me like gurl you ok... nope i wasnt after i found out im losing 14 marks, that was even more aura loss 3. now oral guys, i manifested getting my y3 el teacher, but guess what, i got the package, my Y1 and 3 teacher, and my dumb💩...

the sixth stage of grief

over the course of my four years in cedar, i have experienced the whirlwind of the five stages of grief. the timeline is as follows: 2022: denial 2023: anger 2024: bargaining and depression 2025: acceptance but there is something else i have begun to see emerge from within the unreachable depths of my soul. it's something dark yet hopeful, motivating yet unsettling.  see, let me give a background. i have changed over the years. physically, mentally and psychologically. i have experienced things that have contributed to my life in the countless ways possible. i may not be as hardworking and work-addicted as i was in primary six, but the tables have turned in my final lap around the track of worksheets, classes and school. i was naive to believe that i would somehow manage to stick the landing in my academics and trust me it was the worst misconception in my life.  the sixth stage of grief, people call it.  revenge. i'm back and i'm ready for whatever comes my way. i'm go...

confusion

it's english rn but i don't care. i have decided to research about my preferred uni choice and now i have come back with confusion.  pure. utter. confusion.  so basically, earlier this year, i wanted to be a microbiology expert but now, i want to be a pilot bc i love planes. and i do know how to fly one because i have played flight simulator before and it is the best thing ever. BUT. now instead of taking bio, which i like, i have to take physics, which, honestly, i don't have any idea whether i like it or not. so right now i am in a dilemma. i don't know what to take. bio or physics?????? my dude why can't i take both bio and physics in jc 😭😭😭 i need more time to decide like hold up! lowkey i want to take physics but equally i want to take bio so i guess it's a vote then. i'll ask everyone i know. which may include cedar np unless i'm too lazy. but anyway i will come with more updates. ps the pop gift is breaking my brain why are there so many bugs i...

A fried bird

 Rn we are in physics and learning Practical electricity lol And our cher is explaining wires and like talking about how birds are able to be perched to them without being electrocuted Then she said if on of its legs js touching high potential and the other 0v, it become a fried bird. A FRIED BIRD LOL  The way she delivered it with such monotone with a smile is just cracking me up Now shes destroying the air purifier's plug Live laugh love physics  Byeee

POPOPOPOPOP COUNTDOWN

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